Riding The Waves

I am someone who hates artificial birth control and am super conscious of what I put into my body. I had previously been on the pill, had the copper IUD, and eventually the Kyleena. I had been on artificial birth control since high school- I can’t even believe that! But as I continued to learn more about my body and did a little more research on my own about the topic, I began to realize that I could naturally monitor my cycle without having to add artificial hormones to my body. I could eat the right things, exercise the right way, know when my “red and green days” are (my Natural Cyclists will know what this means!). Doing everything according to my cycle just became so easy and I realized I would rather live by my cycle than control it artificially (and I realize that’s not for everyone, and I am not here to preach NC or judge you if you love your BC, you do you girl!!). But in my journey, I scheduled an appointment with my doctor and had my IUD taken out.

By the time November 2024 came around, I had been strictly just following my natural cycle for about 4 months and was aware of when I would be ovulating, when my period would begin, all the important information for either wanting to start or wanting to avoid growing our family. And at the end of November, we had decided to grow it.

December 16th, 2024 hit me like a bag of bricks. I was extremely dizzy, nauseous, and so tired that I would get out of bed in the morning and then go take a nap on the couch. All three of those symptoms are NOTHING I normally experience. I remember working on my laptop in my office, and next thing I knew I was waking up from a nap on my keyboard… SO bizarre! But I didn’t think anything of it. The next night, I had a very vivid dream that I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. I woke up from that dream, and I remember thinking “Oh my gosh! That was so exciting, that would be such a fun feeling!” So I went into the bathroom and took a pregnancy test because why not? I had stocked up on like 2 boxes just because- so I had some to spare!

It came back negative and I remember feeling such a quick “aww man” feeling. But then I went on with my day. That day was also full of the same symptoms, but less extreme. I went to bed that night, and again- the SAME vivid dream. I woke up the next morning and was honestly super weirded out, because not only do I not typically have vivid dreams, I typically never dream in general (or at least I never remember dreaming). So I walked into the bathroom and took another pregnancy test….and it was positive.

On December 19th, 2024 I found out I was going to be a mom.

I’m sure not everyone initially feels how I felt when I saw those two pink lines, I’m sure there are mixed feelings all over the board, but maybe some of you can relate to feeling absolutely elated! I hugged my dogs who were there with me waiting those LONG 5 minutes for my pee to engulf the whole stick. And I immediately wanted to tell everyone I knew at that exact moment. Of course I didn’t! So my dogs got quite the ears-full for the next few hours.

I knew I wanted to tell my husband in a really special way, and he just so happens to LOVE Christmas. So my next purchases were an “I love you Daddy” book, a little beige onesie, and then I put the pregnancy test in a bag, and a little rattle my best friend had gifted me earlier that year as kind of a “good luck, please make me an auntie soon” kind of gift for my birthday, and I went ahead and put all of that in a box to give to him on Christmas Day.

Turns out, my patience with something super exciting is VERY limited. Not telling anyone for 5 whole days was slowly killing me. My dogs were excited, but not fully sharing the thrill of it up to my standards. So, I made it to Christmas Eve and decided I would tell my husband then! 

I made him sit down at the kitchen table with his eyes closed. And I set up my phone camera to video it, inconspicuously, because he was already skeptical as to why I was making him open a present early, I didn’t want him knowing I was also recording his reaction!

I set down the gift in front of him, and he opened his eyes, and began opening the present. I was trying so hard not to tear up, and then he pulls out the tissue paper to reveal what’s inside and says, “Is this a test kit?” And I just started laughing! As I shook my head no, his eyes lit up and questioned “Are we pregnant?! Really?!” Really?! Oh my god! Are you serious? Wow!! Ok! Cool!! And he stood up, gave me a huge hug, and continued saying “Oh my goodness! That’s crazy! Are you serious!? Oh my goodness! That was quick! Cool! We’re going to be parents!”

Yes, my love, we are going to be parents.